Mystery Diagnosis

As a stay at home student, I have become a watcher of quite a bit of daytime television.  Instead of going for the normal soap operas or daytime talk shows, I go for more reality or science shows (my favorite channels during the day are Animal Planet and Discovery Health).

There is one show on Discovery Health called Mystery Diagnosis.  I have found myself watching it whenever I find it on.   Maybe the reason I like it so much is that it is reality for me.  I have my own mystery illness that seems to defy explanations or answers.  The only thing I really know is that it causes constant pain which makes it tiring to do basically anything and nearly impossible to enjoy alone time with my husband.

About 4 years ago, I had a surgery that found a diagnosis for the problem and it went away for 3 years.  Then about a year ago, it came back and was worse than ever.  The doctors took me into surgery again, expecting it to be the same as before, only to find that the previous problem hasn’t played a part in my current problem.  So I have been living with it for the past year, hoping that the next doctor will help or the next or the next.

I have an appointment with a specialist who worked with the founder of the Pelvic Pain Society at the beginning of next year.  I figure if anyone can help me, they can.

New City, Same Old Me

Recently, my husband and I moved to Alabama for his job.  He wasn’t able to find anything where we were living so we had to uproot our lives and move to a new place where we knew no one.  Now, about a month later, things are settling down.  We have the house pretty much set up (except for the stuff that the movers broke and we are waiting on reimbursement for), I have started classes, and he has started his job.

Things are the same as they were before but completely different.  I have always been a bit of a loner but now it is really making me feel lonely.  My husband has been away on trips off and on for the last month, leaving me alone in a new place with no one to really spend time with.  Never before have I felt so lonely, before I had his parents and a few people to spend time with my husband was always there too.

We went out to dinner with a few of his coworkers and their wives and it just hit the point home more.  I have friends through my husband but when he isn’t around, I have nothing.  I have never really been great at putting myself out there and making friends, it always fell through no matter how persistent I was.  I hate putting myself out there and getting almost nothing in return.

Another Attempt

I have blogged before and always got bored, busy, etc.  I am trying to attempt it again.  Let’s see how this goes.